It is now 9:55am on a Wednesday morning. Our sitter is sick and I am stuck with the kids ALL day. I have NO idea how I am going to make it until Josh gets home at 6:00 tonight. Sam kept me up most of the night and all I want to do is go back to bed ALONE. That's one thing I love about dogs. You can always put them in a crate if you need time to yourself. I think CPS would look at me askance if I put the kids in crates and went out for a few hours.I really don't know how SAH parents do it. I love my children but I don't want to spend all day toting them around to the park or play trains on the floor. I want to read a book with no pictures and not hear the baby crying, wanting my boob in his mouth EVERY time he is awake. I know I sound heartless but I am not. I love Ben and Sam so much that sometimes it hurts. But I am SUCH a better parent when I am not with them ALL the time. If you can't understand where I am coming from, then I'm sorry. If you do, then PLEASE HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS DAY.