Time is SO not on my side right now. It is the thing I am currently most ambivalent about. There never seems to be enough of it and at the same time I keep wanting it to pass quickly so I can get a place in my life where I have more of it. Or at least more of it that is free for me to fill as I wish. I am so overwhelmed by all of the things that 'need to be done' right now. And on top of the need to do list I have oh so many things I want to learn more about. I am so hungry to be exposed to new stuff. The internet has been a bad thing for me in some ways. Everyday I hear or read about something else I NEED to know more about.I have always been one of those people who wants to know a little bit about everything. A dilettante of sorts. I will immerse myself in one thing and live, eat, breathe it until I get bored and move on to something else. In some ways this trait has served me well. In other ways, not so much. I have always been overly impressed by people who knew from a very young age what they wanted their life to look like and have stuck with the original plan, without wavering. It seems like they accomplish real things. I am always beginning again and sometimes that is exhausting. But I don't know how to be something else.