Thanksgiving was last week and my life went into a tailspin. Between working and my parents coming to town and then (of course) getting sick AGAIN life went on hold for a bit. It is ironic that the holidays are the busiest time of the year for us portrait photographers. It leaves little time for holiday preparation, so I end up feeling 'less than' every year. In addition, we have the dual holidays of Chanukkah and Christmas to contend with. It is all just too much sometimes. My parents were here from Southern California last week for the first time at Thanksgiving and while it was fun, it was also exhausting. So I, of course, got sick. Is anyone else the only person in their family the only one to always get sick? It is bad enough being the only woman in the house, but to also be the sick vessel gets tiresome. Anyway, we had a nice visit. It is funny, sometimes when I am with my parents I find it hard to believe we all lived underneath the same roof at one time. Watching my dad with Ben was really interesting because Ben is a sensitive kid as was I. My dad is not a big fan of sensitive, so I found myself feeling a great deal of compassion for my younger self through Ben. It was compassion I never allowed myself back then. And I realized this was a gift Ben was giving me. And I was grateful.
I realize this post is a bit all over the place, which is exactly how I feel right now. I feel as if I could not focus on one thing if my life depended on it. It is taking a great deal of energy just to stay on this post for the moment. So I suppose what is 'on my mind' is so very much. My mind is on Lula barking behind me; Tom Stoppard talking on 'Charlie Rose' playing on my second monitor; the photos I need to edit; wanting to get back to the book I am reading right now ('Team of Rivals'); the riverting episode of 'Homeland' I watched last night; etc. See? Scattered. I hope you all are faring better.