On a scale of one to ten today was a 43 on the scale of suckiness. I will once again say HOW DO YOU SAHMS DO IT? I was losing my mind. I went to the new house today and I had a team coming to clean and the Sears delivery guys there and not only was the water not turned on but there was no gas. Turns out Josh had it turned on on the web but they never told him that he needed to do it somewhere else. Just goes to show that if it seems too easy to be true...Luckily our new neighbors Emori and Laura saved the day because they figured out how to turn on the water from the street. It's nice to know that some people can actually fix things (and that they live nearby) because I sure as hell can't. I was raised in Marin and taught to make a phone call and throw a credit card at every problem.So while I am trying to deal with all of this Ben is running around crying and screaming HOLD ME!!! I am incapable of doing more than one thing at a time if I want to do anything well. This does not mean that I don't multi-task constantly because of course I do. But it makes me a bit crazy. So here I am losing it and sweating like a pig in a steam room with this two year-old who is making me crazy. And all I want to do is go to work in the mornings. I am jealous every time Josh gets up to go into the office. I look beseechingly at him to take me too. I read this great Anne Lamott essay recently where she talks about how it always feels like she goes from 0-60 in two seconds flat in the anger arena, but really she is constantly idling at 59 and it takes so little to send her over the edge. That is me! I am always at the precipice of the cliff and about to fall over and it takes SO LITTLE to send me off. I strive to live further back from the edge but it is a work in progress. I am not so ambitious as to expect that I will ever be really zen about anything, but I would like to minimize the number of times I go postal every day. I think I need some serious yoga or drugs. Whichever I can get my hands on first and since this is America, I am betting on the drugs.